Spirituality Exercise

1. For the first question, I think I pretty much covered it in the intro., and now a little in the creed section… but to answer it: I grew up Christian; Baptist

2. I usually know when I’m doing the right thing because it feels like it inside, not just because of the external laws in place… because a lot of them don’t seem or feel right at all really but that’s the law…I tend to follow my conscience, regardless of the law sometimes, but for the most part it’s in accordance with the laws of society/state.That however is probably just a coincidence lol…

3. Well originally I believed in the whole heaven and Hell thing; but since I found the light I now believe in reincarnation.. So yeah, i believe we have more than one physical life here; that is until we get it right, or unless you get it right the first time..But who does that? Who says this is the first time for whoever? It could be my third time… I think that maybe this time I’m gonna get it right. By getting it right I mean remembering(or realizing) that one is of God and God in and of one’s self; and that one is all with one another and everything and that the power one can attain(that which is already within) can be done so(realized) through self-realization, meditation, and attempting to become one with one’s higher self(God), as represented by all Dhjedi(deity) or whatever Dhjedi one chooses to worship..

4. I believe in the supreme Goddess who is the Oneness of it all… The duality of the twin flames. The Amen Ra, MA’AT..Thoth.. I still believe the principles of Jesus and his teachings, especially the “lost” (esoteric occult) ones.. It only served to reinforce what I had found and believe to be the truth… Then I could finally put the pieces together because though I was raise Christian, and baptized and all that I always tried to find a way to incorporate all the other one s too because deep down I knew~though I thought it was thought at the time~ that everyone who did praise a God was praising the same one…Lo and behold I was right(about her bein’ a feminine too;) and if we all are God(s) trying to remeber and praising our different God(self), while at the same time we are all one and so it makes sense because we all praise the Force(whichever one) and we are part of  the Force, as well as each other therefore we are communing with same God(Force) who is us and we them(Gods/Goddesses); I can try to explain it a bit more when I write my book, or thesis or whenever… My God is Loving, caring, powerful, all knowing, infinite in description, a duality of feminine/masculine energy that manifests the Universe as we know it, and as we knew it, and as we will know, wish, and hope it to be…So Mote it be;)

5. I consider pretty much a lot of things done in awareness to be spiritual practice..Going to church, synagogue, mosque, alter(material or self) or nature;) rituals and magic, meditation and communing with one’s God in whatever way works for them…I practice a lot.. I still go to church with my mother because i want to show her the similarities and the major differences and the who, what when why, i kinda lost her on the road of this journey around the top of the illuminati conspiracy thing before i got into the esoterics involved…On my own I commune with, and worship the Old Gods of the Fey Path…Faerie tradition… Also I invoke whatever Dhjedi I see fit for whatever prayer/spell as the Great Mother will come to me in whatever form we see fit anyhow…Want to learn more of Egyptian Magick… but that’s another thing… of course not at all entirely, just a different name/ leanguage

Creed exercise

This is about beliefs. My top #3 are ironically so: The connectedness of all things, the inherent good of humanity, and the belief in reincarnation…These beliefs frame my world..my new world at least as I am just discovering them to be “true”(to me anyway). I also feel like I am racing against time behind me not being in “the know” for all these years….but obviously I wasn’t ready to know/learn yet…still I feel I’m behind and time is somehow running out..which i feel is true somehow..in what way i don’t know…I came to these realizations shortly before I came to this site..it’s what brought me here(see my intro exercise)…I discovered even more than I’d expected once I got here and hope to learn continuously…I’ve always had the belief in the connectedness of all things, to some degree..but it was a very low degree; and to none of the magnitude of which I’m now aware that it was/is/to be.. I just thought tree-huggers were tree-huggers. I grew up baptist, so you know like most of society, the masses, I was taught that environmentalist are like  “nuts” and I’m sure some are… but no lol the big picture is so big, it almost sickened me when i found out..I also know that it is taught not to be “worldly” in the church and people take that to mean earthly as well to some extent..but I think both are wrong and one should of course be spiritually sound as well as one with the earth; the whole thing about fully integrating the soul and all that don’t get me started on that, I’m into so much now…The inherent good of humanity? A direct contradiction(which is totally congruent)to the Christian doctrines of Adam and Eve, who were good, until deceived by satan, then banished and sentenced to die slow..for tryin’ to be like God! so everyone thereafter was booorn baaad…”booorn baaad!..It’s such a sin…I guess..” sorry, I like dat song..So anyway I found out the truth and then i immediately could see most if not all of the falsehoods and codes If  you will of the scriptures; all the “contradictions and stuff that doesn’t make sense” that I always heard people talk about but never paid attention to. Another myth discredited… Yet another one is reincarnation! I always had a fancy for this one and respected it as a doctrine of a valid religion and certainly a pleasant one as opposed to hell but i guess just as bad in the long one if you really thought about it..which I didn’t because I was taught that’s a crazy “goin’ to hell” type religion when in actuality theirs is one of the most valid as far as that of some of the original teachings in KMT. That, magic, and a host of other things I’ve discovered in this seemingly ‘endless purification’ …more to come

backonline

So for the last 2 weeks I been doing my workouts (3times a week, same routine) and some new energy meditation exercises I found.. haven’t been able to get online behind some glitch/virus or whatever was the problem…Also I been on my ‘endless purification’ quest as I like to call it;)..studying more and more esoteric material..sacred texts and the like..trippin’ out off the many coincidences and seemingly redundant theme of it all…As opposed to the masses view or rather portrayal of them as being so different..quite the contrary approaching the core…

exercises, calisthetics, cardio work

I kept it simple yesterday and did about 150 pull overs 40 w/simultaneous  bench press and the rest w/out… followed by 150 crunches and then 50 pull-ups… Half of those were wide arm front (like you on a monkey bar), the other half  close back arm like curling myself(weight).. I lift my legs  to  form a 90 degree angle w/my body while doing these pull-ups.. It tightens the stomach tremendously… If not used to doing it this way, I wouldn’t recommend doing more than a few as it is very easy to pull something by overdoing this…Showers…

Energies, Connections making a quieter connection

So last night I practiced making connections w/out sending energy waves… It’s very hard to do..Mostly because of the confusion of the differential of the feeling of energy and simple connection…I started w/a meditation. Concentrating on the center of energy(chakra) below my navel, I began to visualize it running up to my arms and I could actually feel my arms began to tingle all over; and more w/each breath especially when concentrating and focusing on the power coming from the earth through my body w/each breath. An Amazing feeling it was…Especially when you have the realization that it is in fact happening and flowing; and upon the realization of  said realization you don’t lose the flow!! Phenomenal indeed..I was so pumped about that I tried another exercise w/my feet and the walking while consciously directing the energy flow preferably before the physical movement…That works very fast but is easy to lose if you lose concentration say by that same realization that it is in fact working and you are doing it… I also tried the same exercise with my hands; just simple movements where I direct the energy to said place and then move my body to match that direction…It produces almost an instant tingling in my hands and I’m reminiscent of movies like the Matrix ;where Neo learns to move with his energy and is super fast ( in comparison to others). Also it reminds me of martial arts and why those kung-fu/Tai-chi/etc.  fighters always get in touch w/their energy and stance when about to engage… All of that makes more sense to me now… I just love how the degrees of separation seem so much smaller when you start to make all these connections….

Why Jedi?

I was first inspired to seek the Jedi path when I experimented w/magnetic energy just messin’ around; and I discovered it was real! A phenomenon that made me realize the potential for boundless possibilities and that I was in fact, in “The Matrix” so to speak…This mind you, occurring as I’m exploring my “witchy” side in concurrence w/my studies in spirituality..For those that think: “Hey that’s pretty blasphemous or sinful”, Let me give a little background..My path towards enlightenment began with the study of conspiracy theories such as the illuminati and the New World Order…To my chagrin; it wasn’t much of a conspiracy at all but a series of unrelenting facts and coincidences that hardly seem as such!!! Further into my studies and ever so often along the way I came across many different aspects and views of theosophy/philosophy…A recurring theme was that of the Oneness and the dogma of religion keeping us from a certain peace and/or piece of information important…Another one was the occult being purposely hidden and demonized so as to be used for only the selfish gains of those who possessed the knowledge…Well in short, I want in!! In the top tiers of my research..someone gave me a nudge in the direction of Thoth/Ma’at… I googled it.. and found a whole world of “occultism” and knowledge that not only correlated with my studies but provided several missing links that made sense of so much that i had seen and brushed off b4 or perhaps took into consideration but didn’t have the knowledge to apply or make good sense of it… past 6 months have been very illuminating to say the least…(this coincides w/my answer on training I have had…)Then as I’m into everything(as we r everything and vice/versa) I thought the illuminati conspiracy was deep~ Ha! a shallow puddle compared to the knowledge that was stolen, hidden, made to be taboo, and plain demonized for the manipulation of the world for personal gain!!! pissed me off quite frankly.. and while I didn’t completely renounce my religion spiritually (as the principles are still sumwut the same and def. valid) I did immediately declare myself a Pagan/witch and looked into all kinds of forms of divination; partly as rebellion but moreso As I had now the Knowledge of (self) Our Divinity and of the potential we have as Creator!!!i.e. becoming AWARE,thinking like THAT which we are..then I was on a blog talk radio show; and as I was already fascinated by the whole concept of Thoth(thought) and him being “thricegreat”(trinity) and mostly the unspoken name of Dhwty or Djedhi(Origin of the word diety no doubt!!) The host kept calling hers3lf a jedi and referring to listeners as jedi and council, etc.. then when I saw the spelling? lmao wow! DJEDHI!! perfect sense!! Then like clockwork I began to see the prequel trilogy of “Star Wars” phantom menace clone wars revenge of the sith.. all of ‘em in a marathon nonetheless! I watched them again for the first time as an illuminated mind and saw so much useful valid and correlating info. that i wanted to do more research on Jedi and all things Force(which ironically is all things!! lol) my research led me to google Jediism the religious movement.. I saw the link for this site and clicked in curiosity~Quasar~ a star is born. So that’s pretty much the way it went down….Once realized it was in fact the Force that i was dealing with or rather experiencing; Though it is referred to by many other names(Chi, Prana, Kundalini, God, etc.), I was most intrigued by that of the Force as I had seen Star Wars again and well who doesn’t wanna be a superhero? lol Jedi are kinda like that to me….but they are so well personified in the movies w/the emphasis on training and the Force that it gives them a more realistic and obtainable view if you will…

Part II: The View Along The Way

In defining a Jedi, I would call them heroes; but also students of  God(the Force) in an epic battle for the benefit/welfare of the good in whatever setting they may find themselves..Particularly so for the modern day Jedi I would imagine; as they are in much different times and situations than that of  any movies featuring Jedi. I definitely aspire to attain several aspects of the Jedi attributes including, but not limited to: their wielding/manipulation of  the knowledge of the Force, the ability to be selfless at times required, their physical attributes as a warrior,  their relentless pursuit of growth( in most cases), and many other mental spiritual & physical virtues they possess such as their leadership skills etc… In my society, it undoubtedly means helping my fellow man whenever possible, trying to maintain an upstanding position in society, and a general constant pursuit of knowledge and greatness…

Part III: Looking Forward

My goals for training in the way of the Jedi are as follows:

In the next 3 months I hope to have a better understanding of the knowledge of the Force and the manipulation of said knowledge..Also I plan to have an even better grasp on the arts of magick(Force), Reiki, and Yoga…Also I plan to slim down a bit more and cut up so I can be as fit as possible for whatever reason along w/taking a CPR class and possibly a lifeguard class as I’m not certified and not really confident in deep deep water)….In the next 6 months I plan to have a better realization of my powers in/knowledge of the Force. Also I want to be versed in Yoga, healing, and other things like fitness, personal mental work and developing my mental psychic abilities…In the next year I hope to be well on my way to being an Adept or possibly one already? lol (gotta shoot for the stars) Also I would love to be able to connect w/the Force w/just my mind and see things and/or know things that one wouldn’t ordinarily pick up on…Telepathy/Telekinesis I feel it should be w/in my means of attaining because after all, I am more than likely a mental intuitive so it should be up my alley…I’d like to just sit and meditate and know everything that ever was/is/to be..Wow sometimes I gotta just relax and roll a fatty as it always helps to relax me and  I hardly even have to try to concentrate when I’m experimenting w/the Force..Did I mention I’m like almost a Rastafarian (short of the Selassie aspect) and a definite marijuana activist as cannabis/hemp has more uses than the peanut!! Seriously google THC; the toxicity rate is 1000:1 as opposed to cocaine at 15:1, alcohol at 10:1, and heroine at 6:1..How’s that for an “illicit drug? Why is alcohol legal and Mary Jane not? hmmm I suspect it’s another aspect of the conspiracy as not only does cannabis help in the opening of the Pineal gland(third eye chakra) which we all know “they” don’t want, but it also has hundreds of uses(besides smoking) including treatment as a pain killer, the cures/prevention of certain cancers such as prostate cancer, not to mention the dozens of  products that can be made from hemp such as everything from food to clothes, sauces, spices, materials themselves such as cement!, polyurethane plastics, rubbers, it’s phenomenal…That’s neither here nor there though. I try to make good uses of the former and latter..Sorry for the tangent; sometimes I just am compelled to get a certain view/point across to clear up potential misunderstandings and the like…Plus it frees my mind a bit… Anyway my biggest obstacles to attaining my goals are time restraints( as i feel there aren’t enough hours in a day sometimes) and perhaps some family responsibilities but that shouldn’t pose too much of a problem because I’m getting better w/my time management skills… Now that I’ve written these statements I feel excited inspired and overwhelmed( yes all three and more), and I’m sure it’s due to my mania (as I’m a self diagnosed manic depressive who self medicates babee;)… Sometimes I just want to do it all or do nothing. I’m very all or nothing but I’m breaking out of that…When I’m in a manic mode I am very dedicated and somewhat obsessive in my pursuit of the interest at hand..On the Contrary when depressed I’m very un-motivated and almost indifferent(but not quite because I always feel my God-self or conscience telling me I shouldn’t be feeling that way) and that gets me more depressed unless I make a conscious effort to “snap out of it” which I try to do often ;and hope to be able to control my emotions and or act regardless of them like a true Jedi should. In time I guess, with training…Also I do overwhelm myself w/thoughts of The Force being all and all being the Force( In the Aspect of God being any and everything, experiencing all things that were/are/are to be from all perspectives/viewpoints simultaneously!) It’s just so awesome that to fathom it I feel like my head is on Overload! A state of total awareness; to be Aware fully; is to realize that you are God looking at yourself through the eyes of God and observing life of all things which are connected and God simultaneously!! lmao It’s just great… When I’m able to convey/communicate the concept clearer I will be that much happier and at peace…”til next time…

Shadow effect

I just watched an episode of The Colbert Report (a guilty pleasure of mine) and D. Chopra’s book “The Shadow Effect” is a must have!!! He proceeded to debate w/Colbert (during his explanation of the book’s premise) about the Duality of the Force and the dark side not necessarily being evil; but rather an aspect of the duality and additionally a paradox like that of dark & light ,right & wrong, and most opposites in general where as one w/out the other is virtually undefinable…In that aspect true evil is an embodiment of the absence of balance in the dark/light duality that exists w/in all… “the devil is God feeling ill”…” “God and the devil are one” you must accept one to embrace the other….I gotta get that book..based on his arguments, &  perceptions/interpretations of the rebuttals given by Colbert, he( Chopra) def. seems to know of which he speaks and is in correlation w/a lot of the info. I’ve come across in various aspects of my theosophical research. Again; I must have that book…Just a thought